1: Darkest Days
There are times when I'm just a shell when i do not feel anything for anyone all i feel is hollow and bruised everything i touch i break used up and mis-used forced to be someone i don't want to be have i failed somehow or some way will the weight of today finally pull me down to drown in the depths of despair where i am alone except for my rage? my rage...my pain... i hate my darkest days
2: Everything I Touch
The more i feel the more i die nothing to give nothing inside everything i touch i break everything i touch i break everything i touch i break i want to break you down i scratch and tear until it bleeds i do not want i only need i only need i only need... everything i touch i break everything i touch i break everything i touch i break i want to break you down
3: How Can I Hold On
Back when you were my life you gave me something that i could live for but now everything's changed and you're gone but i'm still here waiting how can i hold on with nothing to hold on to why should i hold on when there's nothing to hold on to sex made me feel alive but now i'm so bored with mindless passion drugs were somewhere to hide but they've left me feeling cold and empty so how can i hold on with nothing to hold on to why should i hold on when there's nothing to hold on to i thought you were my friend. that you were someone that i could turn to but now i realize that you were a friend when you needed something so how can i hold on with nothing to hold on to why should i hold on when there's nothing to hold on to
4: Drugstore
You seduced me lonely in your hell naked and hungry i crawl into your cell a virtual drugstore is piled on your bed i can't resist with your tongue inside my head how can everything be justified by you? you get off on watching me bleed you get off on feeding my disease this time will be perfect you explain your tongue's as deadly as a needle in my vein how can everything be justified by you? how can my demise be justified by you? i'm so tired of living for your touch i'm so tired of needing you so much how can everything be justified by you? how can everything be justified by you? how can my demise be justified by you? when did I decide to be crucified by you? how can everything be justified by you? by you...
5: You Complete Me
I am lost in the darkness between two worlds and here i'm struggling you're the light that i've been seeking cause my whole life there's been something missing only you can make me whole just one touch and you complete me rescue me from this black hole that's sucked me in and left me dying you're the truth that i've been seeking cause my whole life i've been lying only you can make me whole just one touch and you complete me god i pray you find me worthy of the right to stand beside you and of your truth and of your passion and of the right to sleep beside you only you can make me whole just one touch and you complete me
6: Save Yourself
I know your life is empty and you hate to face this world alone so you're searching for an angel someone who can make you whole i cannot save you i can't even save myself so just save yourself i know that you've been damaged your soul has suffered such abuse but i am not your savior i am just as fucked as you i cannot save you i can't even save myself so just save yourself please don't take pity on me my life has been a nightmare my soul is fractured to the bone so if i must be lonely i think i'd rather be alone you cannot save me you can't even save yourself i cannot save you i can't even save myself save yourself so just save yourself
7: Haunting Me
Everywhere i go i see your face every sound i hear is the sound of your voice why are you haunting me why are you haunting me why can't i let you go? why are you haunting me? everything about me is a lie at least it seems that way when i look in your eyes now the truth scares the shit out of me who ever said love is real and love is blood has never felt the wau that i feel what does it matter what's done is done and i should get on with my life why are you haunting me? well i don;t know what it is but i can't seem to make myself forget was it something that you said or is it all the guilt inside my head why are you haunting me?
8: Torn Apart
I know i should have told you but i was so afraid you'd leave and now there's nothing left to say well nothing that you'd believe i never meant to hurt you with the things i didn't say i promise you tomorrow while denying you today these lies have torn my world apart a darkness grows inside me in fading shades of grey all the colors of the world are slowly sucked away i'm sinking ever deeper to a place that's cold and black i can't believe i've lost you and you're never coming back these lies have torn my world apart soon the night will take me and save me from my pain cloak me in cold darkness and help me lose your name these lies have torn my world apart
9: Sometimes It Hurts
Six o' clock in the morning my head is ready to explode i can't believe i made it home alive i don't remember where i went or what i was drinking but i know it's made me sick and i'm not denying that i get this way when i try to get over you i get this way when i try to get over you sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love i tried so hard to hate you but it only makes things worse i only end up hating myself and as my hatred grows so do the lies it's hard to face the truth sometimes god i feel so useless god i hate myself when i try to get over you i hate myself how will i ever get over you sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love and after all this time you'd think i'd understand the way you feel but no i only think about myself and it's driving you away i always knew it would one day sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love
10: Drowning
I'm drowning in nothing nothing real nothing left... nothing i'm losing myself sinking deeper down... deeper silently leaving this behind nothing left but me i'm hating myself hating everyone hates me now everyone has changed everything has changed everyone has changed... but me
11: Desperate Now
I keep breaking all the promises that i keep making to myself you'd think by now that i'd be over this instead i'm feeling sorry for myself so why does everything seem desperate now i should be feeling so alive but it feels like something's missing something's wrong somehow it feels like something deep inside has died so why do i feel desperate now why do i feel like dying why do i feel desperate now why do i feel desperate now i keep breaking all the promises that i keep making to myself but promises mean nothing to me anymore circling the drain spiraling to hell so why do i feel desperate now why do i feel like dying why do i feel desperate now why do i feel desperate now
12: Goodbye
So this is where i say goodbye this is where my story ends and if there's one thing that i've learned from life it's that it gets you in the end so goodbye my friend goodbye goodbye my friend goodbye
13: When I'm Dead
I know the tears your crying in your bed alone at night i've cried those tears a thousand times those shallow empty songs about suicide are partronizing you've got to learn to face your fears or do you think i'll be less lonely when i'm dead it can't silence all the voices in my head i close my eyes but i can't make it go away do you think i'll be less lonely can i claim that i'm less lonely when i'm dead when i'm dead i won't feel anything when i'm dead i won't feel anything i know the songs you're singing saying nothing loud and clear i've heard that song a thousand times your noble empty lies about suicide are patronizing you can never understand what i feel or do you think i'll be less lonely when i'm dead it can't silence all the voices in my head i close my eyes but i can't make it go away do you think i'll be less lonely can i claim that i'm less lonely when i'm dead
14: The Thing I Hate
Lost in a world of doubt and insecurity nothing that you hold sacred nothing you believe your life is a contradiction while you thrive on manipulation i fight just to hold on to what i believe i won't become the thing i hate i won't become the thing i hate i won't become the thing i hate i won't become you you've treated me like i'm a worthless piece of shit you think like you're in control but you make me sick i want to watch you suffer the way that you've made me suffer i want to fuck up everything you've ever loved i won't become the thing i hate i won't become the thing i hate i won't become the thing i hate i won't become you
15: On Your Way Down
I hope i see you on your way down i hope you break every bone i hope it kills you on your way down and i hope you die alone all of your hate and all of your lies will it be worth it? when all of your friends refuse to be alibis will it be worth it? i'll see you on your way down it's kinda sad to watch you break down you greedy fuck you pissed it all the way so who will catch you on your way down you've only got yourself to blame when all your worst fears materialize will it be worth it? there's nobody left who cares you're alive was it worth it? i'll see you on your way down way down
16: Waking Up Beside You
I've been so alone for so long forgotten by the world forgotten to myself your effervescent eyes have awakened me and brushed the dust away... but i knew you'd never stay so i memorized the color of your eyes as i lost myself inside you and i memorized the way our legs entwined as i drifted of beside you i miss god i miss waking up beside you at night i cling to you i'm so afraid afraid the day will come and i'll wake up and find you gone but you promise that you'd not abandon me and then kissed my fears away but i woke up to that day but i memorized the way our eyes would meet reflected off the bathroom mirror and i memorized your naked silhouette as you slowly brushed your hair i miss god i miss waking up beside you i've been alone for so long i forgot how much it hurts to wake up so alone but i'd memorized how warm your body felt as you lay half asleep beside me and i memorized the way the sunlight filled the room and played upon your body i miss god i miss waking up beside you