Oh my sweet, how I long to touch your lips and see your smile... has it been too long? I promise you, forever is not enough to darken my heart... you could never be too late. Yet, yet somehow you are, somehow I am now in a different web, I can never break this spirit... please understand me do, I love you more than life itself, the stars in the sky, the dew on the grass... yet I cannot. I snap inside as I tell you but can't you see this? Can't you see how I cannot hurt him, ever? This rut is a voluntary one and I do NOT say I enjoy it, enjoy this play, this act, these lies... but it is preservation of such a delicate heart that keeps me going... you must see my dilemma. You beautiful, beautiful beast, everything is so simple to you... your innocence is like yesterday morning, sun over the horizon, shiny new day... everything springtime... but this maze is more complex than that. Who is right here? Should I just... but I couldn't... but I should, for the sake of honesty, forever, true love perhaps; kill this spider how could I even WRITE this? Evil, evil heart... don't even CONSIDER this. Do you really, do you really think this will ever happen? Do you truly believe after all these years that the knight will save the damsel, however distressed? Do you honestly FORESEE that he will come around? Realise what he's missed? Kick himself for not discovering what he could have had? You bewilder even me with your far-fetched dreams and convictions... they will kill you one day and then I'LL be the one laughing, you murder yourself over a fantasy when you could have been studying