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Dear Delriece...
Merry Meet.
I consider myself to be an Eclectic. I was born into the Christian
faith, but have studied many religions, only to find that I favor none.
It is not that I have any distain for religion, it is just that there is
something missing for me from them. It is as if, somewhere inside me I
know that they are not quite right. Perhaps it is just that I can't
except them or "Believe" in them. I am a very ethical, moral, and
spiritual person. There has always, as long as I can remember, been this
question with regards to myself, a question is not quite correct, its kind
of a question, reolization and a lot of confusing emotions and thoughts
all at the same time. "I am here, I am actually here". It is as if
there is this part of me, deep inside that is not here, not of this body,
the physical me, that is reolizing that I am here. Its as if everyone
else is suppose to be here, but I that I that is not the me (body), is
seeing me here and thats when I get overwhelmed with confusio!
n, emotions, clarity, fog, a sense of separation, everthing at once. I
don't understand it really, I have come to live with it, almost
charishing what I feel as a uniqueness about it. This is not my question, I
just needed to share it for some reason. My question is:
I am married, have two children, when I got married I promised to allow
our children to be brought up in the faith of my wife (Catholic). I
stated that I would not interfere in this and would support their
upbringing in this, but when they were old enough to ask, I would tell them
what I believe, and that I am Eclectic in my beliefs. They both know
that my beliefs differ from theirs and my wifes, this is not a problem,
they will as they grow older choose their own beliefs. My wife is
involved in her religion, and I support her, it is not returned in any
fashion by her. She accepts quietly, that I am what I am, so to speak, but I
believe she does so only because I have kept my beliefs to myself. I
have doen so, as not to cause any confusion, or conflict within the
minds of our children. I don't know if I have a question or not, it al
seems to be a question at times and when I came across your website, I
felt I had to write this down. Maybe just to express it, maybe hop!
ing for a second thought on all this.
Blessed Be.
OfTheEarth in Canada
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Dear OfTheEarth,
It is not as uncommon as you think to feel such a seperation of self realization from the Earthly body. You may have noticed a common theme in many religions of striving to unite with Deity so that the realization will be in the same "place" as the self and physical form if any.
At this point, your fears regarding your wife may well be not as bad as you think. Since she is of different beliefs, she may never be able to understand where you are coming from. But she can understand that you are the person she loves and that she can respect your beliefs. It is time to talk with her about your fears, for truly in this situation it sounds like it is you who keeps yourself hostage.
Light!
Delriece
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